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Oh how its been so long.

I'm so sorry I've been gone!!

I will try to get back on here. Start puttin up new stuff. It shall be amazing. I hope. ^_^ LOVE LOTS!!

This is so wrong!!!!! Parody or not WAY WAY WRONG!!!

This is so wrong.(Some say it is a parody but I dont think it is) This guy is speaking out aginst Gay people but at the top of every page on his website he has a freaking Oscar Wilde Quote!! How the hell can they claim that Homosexuality is bad when they themselves found a use for one of the most widly known homosexuals? This guy says he was a reformed homosexual but that is a bunch of Bullshit. Cyndi Lauper (lesbian) and The Dresden Dolls are on the safe list. I love the Dresden Dolls and all but fuck dude they have songs where Amanda is singing about Being half man and half Women(Half Jack) and Having an Orgasim (First Orgasim). Ravi Shankar and Rufus Wainwright are amazing! Panic! at the Disco is nowhere near singing about anything homosexual. They sing about falling in love in the back seat of a car or in a strip club. Most of the songs were written as an outright dislike for Ryan Ross' father. If I had anything more to say aobut all of this I would say that This Donnie Davies is the scum of the earth (weither his sight is a parody or not.)

Found on http://lovegodsway.org

*The Gay Bands List
One of the most dangerous ways homosexuality invades family life is through popular music. Parents should keep careful watch over their children's listening habits, especially in this Internet Age of MP3 piracy.

Bands to watch out for

The Spores (endorse suicide)
Scissor Sisters
Rufus Wainwright
Merzbau
Ravi Shankar
Wilco
Bjork
Tech N9ne
Ghostface Killah
Bobby Conn
Morton Subotnik
Cole Porter
The String Cheese Incident
Eagles of Death Metal
Polyphonic Spree
The Faint
Interpol
Tegan and Sara
Erasure
The Grateful Dead (AIDS)
Le Tigre
Marilyn Manson (dark gay)
The Gossip
The Magnetic Fields
The Doors
Phish
Queen
The Strokes
Sufjan Stevens
Morrissey(?questionable?)
The Pet Shop Boys
Metallica
Judas Priest
The Village People
The Secret Handshake
The Rolling Stones
David Bowie
Frankie Goes to Hollywood
Man or Astroman
Richard Cheese
Jay-Z
Depeche Mode
Kansas
Ani DiFranco
Fischerspooner
John Mayer
George Michael (texan)
Angel Eyes
The Indigo Girls
Velvet Underground
Madonna
Elton John
Barry Manilow
Indigo Girls
Melissa Etheridge
Eminmen
Nirvana
Boy George*
The Killers
Lou Reed
Lil' Wayne
Motorhead
Jill Sobule
Wilson Phillips
DMX
Lisa Loeb
Ted Nugent (loincloth)
Dogstar
Thirty Seconds to Mars
Lil' Kim
kd lang
Frank Sinatra
Hinder
Nickleback
Justus Kohncke
Bob Mould
Clay Aiken
Arcade Fire
Bright Eyes
Corinne Bailey Rae
Audioslave
Red Hot Chili Peppers
Panic at the Disco
Elton John(really gay)

Safe Bands List

The Right Brothers (Loves Ann Coulter!)
Dresden Dolls
UnderOath
Cyndi Lauper
Falling Up
Flyleaf
THE TURNING
Disciple
P.O.D
Evanescence
By The Tree
Scott Reed
Michael W. Smith
Jars of Clay
DC Talk
Danielson

Tell this fucker what you think about his sorry ass @: donniedavies@gmail.com
(I am)

My take on the son of the so called "God"

I know some of you are like what a bitch just for the name of this Journal but if you are intrigured read on. It really is a good point.

Ok so Jesus turned water into wine made blind men see and came back after a crucifixion, Right?
That sounds a lot like we have discovered not the definitive son of "God" but the first record of the first great Magician. I think since you all warship Jesus i am going to warship Criss Angel. He has probably done all that stuff or could do and is super sexy so Criss Angel you are my messiah!! WOO HOO!!! I am a Chris-tian!!

Oh yeah any comments that are too rude aginst me will be deleted but not all of them I am open to all opinion just don't think i will not give up without a fight ^_^.

MOTHER FUCKER!!!!!

I am never introducing my friends to guys I like ever again!!! FUCK FUCK FUCK!!! Every fucking time I do the damn guy fucking leaves me in the fucking dust for my goddamn friend!!!!! DAMN DAMN DAMN!!!!! I HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE MEN!!! FUCK THEM ALL!!!!!!!!!!

I bitch about my life online because that is the only place where I find people who care.

Yeah, well acting seems to be less and less becoming my strongpoint. It has been my life for 10 years and nobody seems to think I will make it. My mother doesn't really believe in me and I have never been a straight show. Never good enough to be cast in anything worth while unless I had to sing my lungs out. I don't like the muscial singing style. I like singing and acting, that is why I do musicals, but I am not a fan of the musicals themselves. It is in my blood to be on stage I can't stop no matter how much I dislike them personally. My heart tells me I was ment to be infront of an audience, but my skills are telling me that I am just no good. Why keep trying when all I have been seeming to do is fail at my true goal. I just keep failing. I know Mr. Steffen (my drama teacher) keeps telling me that I have talent but where the fuck is it??? I know he means well but if I have it why do I keep getting passed up for roles? Are my talents only spacific to the one large role I have ever had. Can I be only the leading player and leading player alone? People only do Pippin every so often. I want so much to be the part of Abigail in Crucible. I have read that show over and over again. I have wanted to be in that show since the day I read it 4 years ago. Abby is my dream role. I have studied her over and over again trying to perfect the way she should be portrayed according to the script. Then this morning I hear my own mother tell me not to get my hopes up because someone told her that this girl, who was at the auditions the night after I was, was too amazing to not be Abby. My Mom doesn't think I have what it takes to beat a girl she didn't even see act. I want acting so much but everything I am getting in life is telling me that the one thing I thought was the most right thing in my life for 10 years is wrong. I don't know if any of you have ever felt like that but I hope that you never ever have to feel it. Nobody should have to waist 10 years on something that they will be told they are no good in.

I found this on Myspace. I thought it disurved to be here.

*I love Panic! more then life because they are my life but these photos are very true. There might be a few things I would modify but for the most part this is kind of true.*

well then

In talking to a friend of mine on buzznet (melissa) I have realized something. There is nothing in this world that has ever made me feel as good as Panic! at the Disco does. My life changed the day I heard their music. I was totally and utterlly confused about who I was. I had no clue who I was what I wanted out of life. Then my sister brought me to Panic! at the Disco. Granted she wanted me to see the hotness of Brendon but in that I found how amazingly touching their music really was. As I told melissa "Panic! really does change your life for the better. There is just something about their music that touches you deep down in the soul and makes you think and feel like your not alone in this world." I am fully behind that statement I made to her. They make life worth living and give me a reason to wake up in the morning. Their music made me think about who I was and what I wanted in life. I was finally not confused and could be the me that I was longing to find. I dont know if that is what they were going for that with their music but I thank them for it anyway. People can call them emo but I say HELL NO!! They are nowhere near emo. Yes their music has EMOtion (emo is derrived from emotional) but it is not that whiney bitchy crap that bands like Hawthorn Heights (no offence to HH fans) sing about. How they are going to put on eyeliner and cut their writs because the have someone who they think is the love of thier life back in fucking Ohio. Panic!'s music comes from pure emotion that comes from true pain (Ryans father). Not from a childish vanity. When you listen to their music you feel that you are not alone in your suffering and that you will eventually find a way out and be successful in life just as the have. That is why Panic! is so dear to my heart. It is not becuase I am a bandwagon fan who likes the in thing. I will love this band long after they blow away from the public eye because as americans we throw away all good things such as them because something shiny and new has come along. It is also not becuase they look hot in pair of tight jeans. I do not post all these pictures because they are cute boys. I post them because this band is my life and I feel closer to them when I have picutres. Also the fanfictions do the same. I use the member of the band that was cool enough to come over to me and sign an autograph for me even when he was in the middle of a conversation as the lead becuase he was the only one who came over and made me feel special. It just so happend that I am a hopless romatic and that is what my stories end up being (romance). This band will always be amazing to me. No matter how overplayed one song gets on the radio or how many other bands come out that make me quake in the knees because of their music. They were the first band that touched me so deep down in my soul so they become a part of my soul. Thank you Panic! at the Disco. Your my dearest friends.

Oh and sorry if I am way off with the meaning of Panic!'s music but this is how it makes me feel so I guess that would be the point of it. To Please the fans. They have done that very well

Like Vines We Intertwine pt 4

Like Vines We intertwine pt. 4

â�œMaggie?â�

â�œOh hi Chris. So you guys ready for your interview?â�

â�œYeah, what â�¦. are you doing here?â�

â�œWell Chris I am Miss Kendra. It is just a lot better on the ears the Miss Maggieâ�™s playhouse. I guess you donâ�™t watch my show huh Chris? Well I figured you didnâ�™t itâ�™s ok donâ�™t feel bad.â�

â�œSorry. I just thought I would never even see you again.â�

â�œI knew I would be seeing you again.â� Maggie said with a cute smile.

â�œOh so you knew who I was in the bathroom?â�

â�œYeah kind of. It is my job to know bands and their members.â�

â�œNaturally.â�

â�œWell I guess you guys like the room?â�

â�œYeah, did you decorate it yourself or is this just what they thought would look best?â�

â�œI did it. I am not much on being like everyone else so I figured after I made a name for myself in the internet world I would be able to get away with a room that was just how I wanted.â�

â�œIt really is amazing.â�

â�œThanks Greta.â�

â�œWow, she does know us.â�

â�œThat shirt is awesome!â�

â�œThanks Darren I made it myself. That is another one of my passions. A friend of mine used to make her own t-shirts and I eventually got into the habit and that is the end of the story. Well enough about me lets get on to this interview shall we.â�

Maggie went on to describe the type of questions that she was planning on asking, how she would conduct the interview and the types of things that were planning on being said.

â�œMaggie we are ready to start.â�

â�œAlright. You guys ready?â�

â�œAs ready as we will ever be.â�

â�œLets do this thing.â�

The people behind this little window were giving Maggie the 1..2..3..4..5.. Go signal and off the interview went. The whole thing started with â�œWine Redâ� playing as the show and Maggie (Miss Kendra) were introduced by a faceless voice that must have been behind the little window. Then Maggie started in.

â�œHi loyal subjects. Today we are joined by one of my favorite bands. In fact this amazing band was the first band I ever saw in live concert. Well lets meet the members of this great band shall we. Ladies and gentleman, The Hush Sound.â�

â�œIâ�™m Greta.â�

â�œIâ�™m Bob.â�

â�œIâ�™m Chris.â�

â�œIâ�™m the Drummer. Oh I mean Darren.â�

â�œWell guys it is great to have you here lets get on with the part of the show I love best. Fan Inquires!â�

Maggie proceeded to read from a list of questions putting a distinct twist on everything she said. Chris was a little struck when she would ask him a question because he was never really paying any attention to what she was saying just how she was saying it. They way her lips look and her body movements and just the sound of her voice was making him forget that he was even in an interview. He would constantly be asking her to repeat the question. Maggie would oblige him and laugh which in turn made Chris smile and lose track of what she was saying again, then he would be left to just wing it from the little bit of what he had heard of the question.

â�œNow, this is where I just get to let loose and do whatever the heck I feel like doing, or making you do!â�

â�œUh Oh.â�

â�œOk, so the first thing is, Chris what the hell are you thinking about dude? Your are like in your own little world. Did all that makeup sink into your brain and clog up the works before I could properly get it off you? Oh for you who donâ�™t know I saved Chris from looking like a complete jackass on a international internet broadcast.â�

â�œOh, huh..?â�

â�œChris she asked you a question.â�

â�œOh really? Sorry what was it?â�

â�œNever mind I think I humiliated you enough for one day without you knowing, thatâ�™s enough. So another little question Iâ�™ve always wanted to ask you guys. Do you have any memorable moments from any of the tours you might have done?â�

â�œYeah there is always something amazing going on when you are on tour. People get so stir crazy on the buses that when you finally stop somewhere and get time to blow off steam everyone just goes crazy and madness ensues.â�

â�œYeah like that time we were on tour with Panic! at the Disco and the Dresden Dolls and they were filming the Backstabber video. That was I have to say the best time I have ever had on tour. Even when we were not in the video it was just hilarious to talk to the boys and Amanda and Brian after they got done filming because, they were so hyper there was no way to escape the laughter.â�

â�œYeah. I would have loved to be a part of that video! I looked like it would have been so much fun. But I have a question for Bob about that video. Where were you man?â�

â�œWell you see, me and Brendon were in a little bit of a tiff because I had stolen this groupie that he wanted to get at so that pissed him off. And then I was also at one time linked to having a relationship with Amanda and Brian was a little pissed at me too. So I was not invited to join the video.â�

â�œI see.â� Maggie said through her laughter.

â�œNah he is lying. For one he is not that nimble with the ladies so that would never happen. And two he was not invited to join the video because he had stolen some of Amandaâ�™s undies and she was a little freaked out by him.â�

â�œDamn you Darren I told you that in confidence.â� Bob said through his own laughter.

â�œWell, I am sorry you missed all the fun despite whatever you did.â� Maggie said with a caring yet sarcastic tone. â�œSo enough about the many weird or sexy escapades of our dear friend Bob and play a game.â�

â�œOh there are games are there?â�

â�œIt would not be a playhouse without games!â� Maggie said with an evil smile.

Like Vines We Intertwine pt 3

Like Vines We Intertwine pt 3.

â�œDarren did you see that girl that just walked out of here?â�

â�œYeah. She was pretty hot.â�

â�œI know she was like amazing. I talked to her for like 3 minutes and she was really witty and funny and just wow.â�

â�œDid you get her number?â�

â�œYeah that is the one problem with her. I have no last name and no number.â�

â�œSorry dude. Maybe after the is interview thing we will be able to find her.â�

â�œI yeah maybe.â�

They left the bathroom and met the other two in the hallway.

â�œWhat took you so long Chris?â�

â�œWell â�¦â�

â�œChris met a pretty girl in the bathroom.â�

â�œAw Chrisiepoo.â�

â�œShut up Greta or there will be a replay from this morning.â�

â�œOh sorry Chris.â�

â�œLetâ�™s just forget about it please.â�

â�œChris is a little miffed that he did not get a last name or phone number or anything. So let him be.â�

â�œThanks Darren.â�

They all walked into this room with a purple velveteen couch and a large lime green leather chair. There was a giant pink and black sign on the wall that read, â�œMiss. Kendraâ�™s Playhouse,â� on it. The walls were covered in posters of different bands. Chris knew most of them because they were on the same label as the Hush Sound was. He spotted their poster. It was located right behind the green chair. Then there was a bulletin board with a bunch of pictures on it. Chris did not get a good look at it but decided that it must be the host of this little internet show with all the people they must have interviewed.

â�œMiss Kendra will be in in a moment to go over the types of questions she is going to ask and get you a little more acquainted with the show before we begin filming.â�

The little man who just made that announcement waddled out of the room and left the four in the room alone.

â�œWow, I really love how this room is decorated. Do you think this Miss Kendra decorated it herself?â�

â�œI donâ�™t know ask her when she gets here. If she is ever going to get here.â�

â�œDarren is right, we get rushed into this stupid interview and she is not even here yet. How insane is that.â�

â�œSettle down Chris.â�

Just a Chris is going to say some smartass remark Maggie walks through the door.

â�œMaggie?â�

â�œOh hi Chris. So you guys ready for your interview?â�

â�œYeah, what are you doing here?â�

â�œWell Chris I am Miss Kendra. It is just a lot better on the ears the Miss Maggieâ�™s playhouse.â�

Like Vines We Intertwine pt 2

They arrive at the interview spot and are rushed into makeup.

â�œUmm why do we have to have make up for an internet interview?â�

â�œBecause it is going to be filmed and you have to look good. â�œ

â�œBut I look good all the time and donâ�™t really care to change my look for some dumb interview.â�

â�œChris just sit down and shut up.â�

â�œFine then mother.â� Chris said glaring at Bob.

Chris reluctantly sat in the chair and endured the torture of getting globs of makeup put on his face covering many imperfections he seems to have just gotten.

â�œYou can get up now sir.â�

â�œSir?â� Chris asked staring at her blankly. â�œAlrightâ�¦. Thanks I guess.â�

They all got up from their chairs and Chris looked in the mirror. He was utterly repulsed at the amount of makeup was on his face.

â�œAre you guys ready?â�

â�œHuh?â�

â�œOh yeah I guess, but let me go to the bathroom first please.â�

â�œYeah that is fine. There is a bathroom right there.â�

â�œOh thanks.â�

Chris went into the bathroom not realizing that it was a unisex bathroom. A girl wearing cute well worn jeans, a white and lime green T- shirt that said â�œMusic = Lifeâ� in old English letters, and a pair of chucks walked out of one of the stalls.

â�œUhâ�¦.. I am sorry I must have walked into the wrong bathroom. Sorry.â�

â�œNo this is the right bathroom. We call it â�˜Unisex,â�™ it is supposed to promote equality in the workplace or something like that.â�

â�œOh.â�

â�œHi, I am Maggie.â�

â�œHi, Chris.â�

â�œWell I will leave out the friendly handshake because as you know my hands are befouled with the grime that lives in the orifices of my body. Not to say that I am not perfectly educated in the manner of hygiene, but you understand. Well it was nice meeting you Chris. I will let you to your business.â� Maggie walked to the sink and started to wash her hands.

â�œOh. Well I am just in here to get this crap off my face. I donâ�™t think I need any of this shit. Seriously, I mean if you want to interview the band let them be themselves not these mimes of themselves.â�

â�œYeah, I hate makeup. What is the point of covering your entire face in an attempt to make it beautiful. Your just hiding the beauty that was already there.â�

â�œWow not many women these days say that.â� Chris said as he took a paper towel and wiped off his face.

â�œYeah, I try to be one of a kind that is steadily dying. Oh you are a little blotchy may I help?â�

â�œAre you sure you washed off all the befoulment?â� Chris said with a smile.

â�œYes, I would never dream of putting something like that on someoneâ�™s face.â�

They both started laughing as Maggie picked up the paper towel and started to wipe away the makeup remains Chris had missed in his first feeble attempt. As Chris stood there looking at Maggie, there was something about her that would not let him look away. Maggie finished and all he could seem to let slide from his lips was, â�œThanks.â�

â�œYour welcome.. Chris?â�

â�œYeah.â�

â�œWell till we meet again Chris.â�

Maggie walked out of the bathroom and Chris just stood there dumbfounded. Then it hit him that he should have gotten her number or something. She seemed so amazing and he let her slip right through his fingers. Before Chris could go running down the hall after the girl Darren walked through the door and pulled Chris towards where the interview was to take place.